Will I?

Will happiness ever reside in me again?
Will I ever feel that warm feeling inside?
Will I ever be someone's lifelong love?
Will I ever be able to say I love you and it honestly is mutual?
Will I ever be loved?
Will I ever have that someone when I need them?
Will I ever be who I want to be?
Will I ever find what makes me forever untroubled?
Will I ever want to keep living?
Will I ever not want it to end already?
Will I ever dread the day I am gone forever?
Will I ever be truly missed?
Will I ever be delighted to wake up every day?
Will I ever do what I want with my life? 
Will I ever be able to do the things I enjoy the most?
Will I ever live in a world I actually purely adore?
Will I ever find the reason why?
Will I ever find a solution?
Will I ever make memories that never get spoiled by the bad?
Will I ever find people who genuinely like me?
Will I ever look at myself and see beauty?
Will I ever look at myself and see worth?
Will I ever look at myself and like what I see?
Will I ever be free?
Will I?

-Khushi Kaul